Already the fifth day into this month. Just a random idea, if you can match the twelve months by colors, what would it be? I definitely would choose Jan as yellow and Dec as grey.
One of my primary schoolmates went to create a whatsapp group for Class 6J. I am seriously embarrassed by not remembering their names, At all. Worse still, they remembered my name. Crystal clear. Sigh, I need to start matching names to faces. Apart from me making a total fool of myself, I'm really glad to connect back with them, Surprised how different on the paths we've taken as compared to the ones we thought we'd take. Like I'm supposed to take on the JC route to local university, but I did not. Likewise those whom I thought wasn't possible went to local universities with crazy high scores. Life is so unpredictable, just like that.
Y'know sometimes your heart refuses to accept the reality no matter how hard you try to? Exactly my feelings now. So much for bros over hoes. Big talk, asshole. I really detest guys who just want to get close to girls for other motives, and then chuck them one side when there's no response. Hey, not cool. Especially when it's coming from someone you were really buddy with.
That aside, last three weeks of work left. I have too much to catch up yet at the same time, I'm feeling really lost. Working has taken a big role in my daily life for the past 7 months, and I'm scared to feel that days are dragging with me doing nothing productive. Sure I have to study, but studying is nothing near to being called productive. I achieve nothing that is impactful to Earth. It's all for the stupid cert and a job, but nothing else. That's what I hate about studying and what I like about working. Work for life, my friend said.
Question is, what do I want? I want to try for government sector. Why? Because it's probably the easiest and safest route to be in. For corporate roles too. I don't think I'm suitable to bear the competitiveness under private or major MNCs. My cowardliness is quite up there. Especially after working in the recruitment industry. Those backstabbing are insane.
Future is so scary. I wish that I can stay in my happy bubble forever.
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