Am I the only one bothered by this? Seemed to me this way. You thought I was too young to handle, I should have fun blah blah. Sure, I'm confused by how things function, but it shouldn't be decided by you about how I should feel. Where's my say in this? Fine. You didn't mention anything because I had other commitments and being twenty-three ain't old enough to handle. I'm thankful for the concern, but did you know how I really felt? I wasn't part of your future. And I always had to be the first to ask, then you shut me off. End of the day, I'm the burden for you.
Financial stability. Financial stability. Financial stability. I hated these two words. My parents fought over this two words even until now. I know how important this is, but what is being financial stability? When there's enough to cover for marriage? For family? For housing? For education? For medical? This shit is endless. If you were to ask my definition of financial stability, it doesn't exist unless I earn shit load like twenty grand per month? Or maybe with that amount of money, there may be more implications.
Secure, insecure. I don't even know what shit to feel right now. Live day by day? I'm a girl. I need something to hold on. Plans of future. For the past long while, the only thing I constantly tried to convince myself was I'm part of your future.
Two of my friends became single. Getting attached at the same time was a sign, and breaking up at the same time? Unwillingly I have to face my own doubts, again. That I never felt being a part of your future.
Maybe I should have just shut my mouth and so I wouldn't have to feel like crap now.
Financial stability. Financial stability. Financial stability. I hated these two words. My parents fought over this two words even until now. I know how important this is, but what is being financial stability? When there's enough to cover for marriage? For family? For housing? For education? For medical? This shit is endless. If you were to ask my definition of financial stability, it doesn't exist unless I earn shit load like twenty grand per month? Or maybe with that amount of money, there may be more implications.
Secure, insecure. I don't even know what shit to feel right now. Live day by day? I'm a girl. I need something to hold on. Plans of future. For the past long while, the only thing I constantly tried to convince myself was I'm part of your future.
Two of my friends became single. Getting attached at the same time was a sign, and breaking up at the same time? Unwillingly I have to face my own doubts, again. That I never felt being a part of your future.
Maybe I should have just shut my mouth and so I wouldn't have to feel like crap now.
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